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Hello Guys,

So started writing my Heidegger essay today and most students will know that horrible feeling where you have done all that research, prep and are ready to start and the task to write that first page to get your rhythm and head around what is in principle a hypothesis you think you can write about coherently and justify how right you are to your readers (I might just be showing my failures as a student here) Sometimes you stare at the screen for so long the task seems impossible. Then you start writing and suddenly all your ideas poor onto the page (they might be crap, but its there)

I increasingly immerse myself in books and forget sometimes that time passes, it occurred to me today that I go 23 in a few months, it made me feel like I was getting old. You always have that older person, friend or family that always say ‘oh I wish I was 23 again its so young’ but to be honest I still feel like I did doing my G.C.S.E’s except my life has changed and now I have adult responsibilities. Don’t get me wrong I am not some 23 year old stuck in the mind of a 15 year old, or an immature person, I just don’t feel that much older but people treat me like an adult now. Its nice but its also frightening because it means change, primarily by myself. My responsibilities are my own now and although I like that its hard and sometimes when things are bad I just want to run to someone older and say help me like you would if you fell, except now most problems can’t resolved this way. All in all however I would not have it any other way, I love the time now, it changes constantly but its life and we learn along the way.

This summer I have decided is my sort out summer, catch up on all my work, start some new bits, read lots of books and prepare for my next academic year and to be honest I cannot wait. I love being a student, and I love Manchester Met. I love the fact that everyday I learn so much new stuff, even if its what Heidegger thought about art in relation to metaphysics, to what Laing did to help his patients using existential method. It makes me life meaningful to me, everyday is like waking up to a new world view, and that suits me :)

Peace

Nessie x